Because I need to increase my daily intake of green.

I see the sort of stuff she gets to do, and dammit... I wish I could be there, too.

We really aren't the same anymore.

I wish that Facebook would stop suggesting that I "reconnect" with people that I don't really care to "reconnect" with.

Which really begs the question, "Why do I even have these people on my friends list in the first place?"

God damn if I know.

My friend Kim is making and selling kickass stuff.

If you have a lady/are a lady/enjoy wearing jewelry anyway, go here: http://www.etsy.com/shop/missbui You can find some neat Christmas ideas!




Aside from this, I hate dreams where your teeth fall out. Fuck.

Interesting...

I'm not sure yet if this will be brief or not. How about we just get some thoughts down and go from there.

Sometimes I'm not sure. Sometimes I wish that I was a little more outgoing, that I had a few more friends. Sometimes I wish I could feel a little more sure about myself, about my choices in life, about my talents. Sometimes I wonder...

The other night, I had a dream... Half-conscious dream. I get those sometimes, where I'm only half asleep, but I'll have vivid pictures or, well, storylines pop into my head. Anyway, I was reborn in the same place, to the same parents, in the same sort of situation, only this time I was born with all of the memories I have now. I knew everything that I had already learned, that I had done, who I had met. And yet, as I grew older, I didn't use this knowledge to do anything extraordinary. I continued on with my life as normal (albeit with slightly better grades this time around, heh) until grade seven, when I had my first encounter with Jamie. The latter half of the dream was spent trying to convince him that we would one day be married. It didn't really go so well; he kind of thought I was a weirdo.

I've had that sort of dream a lot lately. I'll be re-born into different situations. I wonder if my mind is trying to tell me what could have been, or if what is right now is really the best I could have hoped for. It's difficult to interpret.

Been dwelling a lot on the thought of school. I can't wait until I'm down to the last few shreds of time left in my deadline so I can stress myself right the fuck out and do everything at the last minute. It's funny how you really don't know what styles work for you until you try the one that you think will work better, only to discover that it really doesn't. I like my deadlines. I need to have them sooner. I work better with deadlines, I really do.

I've been writing a lot recently. I think I'm going to have a secret love affair with one of my characters, though. Lol, seriously though, I really enjoy writing about this one individual. He's so entertaining. Naturally, I'd love to be able to write about my favourite character, but dammit all, I had to make him stuck in the realm of darkness for the entirety of the first book, didn't I? Asshole.

Um... yeah, I dunno what else. I think I'm done now. Bye.

I see only one person being that way, and it's probably not who they're thinking of.

Even though, for the life of me, I cannot convince myself to do a damned productive thing with myself these days...

I still feel so happy. I'm so content.

Really... I have nothing to be sad about. All is well.

I hope all is well for everyone else, too. If not, hopefully it gets that way soon!

Lotsa love.

3/5 intended Adamant armors received. Not sure if I'll bother with the 5th, or even with the 4th if I don't get it soon. There's always the carry-over games to get it. 3 should cut it for my next playthrough. :P

Ugh, why can I not convince myself to do any work? I'm tired of my incessant procrastination.

Okay. Before bed, one chapter at minimum. Okay? Okay.

Edit: For the record... I didn't do as I said I would. PROMISE that I will read two chapters tomorrow to make up for it as I have the day off.

Against my better judgment, I decided to give FF4 DS another try, because quite honestly, I'd really like to see the ending.

Fought some flan princesses, PINK TAIL, FIRST TRY.

FF4 DS, I forgive you.

Or I'll just go over here, now.

oddee.com/item_96492.aspx

OMG AWW.

Okay, these guys don't want their photos posted, apparently.

NO VIEWS FO YOU!

She's not exactly the one I wish hurt upon, but it's still funny as fuck.

Meanwhile... <333

Bwahahaha.

So, on the website... it says the mark for my essay was 100%, and yet just now I received an e-mail saying he finished marking it and gave it a 94%.

I mean... That's still a good mark, but it's kind of a kick to the balls. Like, seriously.  Don't bother to post anything until you're sure what mark you're going to assign it.

Meh, whatever. A 4.0 is a 4.0.

Anyway, I'm tired as fuck.

For the love of christ, can I please stop having tooth problems?

I want to win the lottery just so I can spend it on new teeth. For fucking christ sake.

I seriously need a fucking day off or something. For fucking Christ sakes.

I'm so tired of having to get up in the morning for x days in a row. God damn it. Can I not fucking sleep in for once?

That's not even what's making me really mad. But I don't have time to go into that because, naturally, I have to be up early tomorrow.

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck, kill me.

There's something wrong when a 100% essay isn't even cheering me up.

I mean, it's pretty damn cool, but what exactly does that even mean right now?

HOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got 75% on the garbage essay! That means I got an 84.6 in the class!!!

I hope they round up. I'm fairly confident that's the difference between an A and an A-.

But still... W00000000000000000000000T!!!!!!

If I'm so damn concerned about schoolwork, why the hell am I still sitting on the internet?

It's a paradox.

So... I found this nice little tidbit on someone's blog on another site and it made me scratch my head.

I think this is the only phrase I've ever heard that manages to put oneself on a pedestal while at the same time putting them down. Does that make it like an oxymoron? Oh, wait, it's just stupid.

I'm not going to sugarcoat this, but are you fucking kidding me? I'm pretty sure that if some guy saw it fit to break up with you, he probably DOESN'T want to find someone like you. He wants someone better. And you better bet your ass he's going to find one. Probably one that doesn't think loving him is 'stupid'.

Honestly. Do you really REALLY think that that kind of an attitude is going to win him back? Are you seriously telling him that a) he's never going to find anyone other than you, and b) that no other woman would be 'stupid' enough to love him, and yet expecting him to come rushing back into your arms once he realizes his folly? SERIOUSLY?

"No girl is stupid enough to love you like I do!!"
"Well, I'm not interested in staying with someone who's stupid. Bye."