I'm not sure yet if this will be brief or not. How about we just get some thoughts down and go from there.
Sometimes I'm not sure. Sometimes I wish that I was a little more outgoing, that I had a few more friends. Sometimes I wish I could feel a little more sure about myself, about my choices in life, about my talents. Sometimes I wonder...
The other night, I had a dream... Half-conscious dream. I get those sometimes, where I'm only half asleep, but I'll have vivid pictures or, well, storylines pop into my head. Anyway, I was reborn in the same place, to the same parents, in the same sort of situation, only this time I was born with all of the memories I have now. I knew everything that I had already learned, that I had done, who I had met. And yet, as I grew older, I didn't use this knowledge to do anything extraordinary. I continued on with my life as normal (albeit with slightly better grades this time around, heh) until grade seven, when I had my first encounter with Jamie. The latter half of the dream was spent trying to convince him that we would one day be married. It didn't really go so well; he kind of thought I was a weirdo.
I've had that sort of dream a lot lately. I'll be re-born into different situations. I wonder if my mind is trying to tell me what could have been, or if what is right now is really the best I could have hoped for. It's difficult to interpret.
Been dwelling a lot on the thought of school. I can't wait until I'm down to the last few shreds of time left in my deadline so I can stress myself right the fuck out and do everything at the last minute. It's funny how you really don't know what styles work for you until you try the one that you think will work better, only to discover that it really doesn't. I like my deadlines. I need to have them sooner. I work better with deadlines, I really do.
I've been writing a lot recently. I think I'm going to have a secret love affair with one of my characters, though. Lol, seriously though, I really enjoy writing about this one individual. He's so entertaining. Naturally, I'd love to be able to write about my favourite character, but dammit all, I had to make him stuck in the realm of darkness for the entirety of the first book, didn't I? Asshole.
Um... yeah, I dunno what else. I think I'm done now. Bye.